Caged DCC'S Journal

Basically... title...

They say when the barbarians sacked rome, there were local romans joining in on it. Because they no longer saw the world around them as something that represents them or something worth preserving.

Likewise, I no longer see any of my work as something worth preserving. Every major project I worked on was derived from curry mythology.
But I no longer see anything to do with curry land as worth preserving.
No do I see anything in the west as worth preserving because of docile and cucked they are and willing to open their legs to shitskin barbarians.
Even East Asia doesn't REALLY offer anything worth preserving.
I used to write highly detailed erotica, which were over the top, but I now realize that somewhere out there, someone has done this stuff irl. So it isn't as Fantastic as I think it is, and I'm just a shitskin coper for writing this stuff.

I could write a futuristic world of a curryland that has reformed and curries live like civilized people, but the curries wouldn't care for it, and they would actually disagree with the message. That and the fact that I realize now that curries are beyond redemption.


I hate these world so much.
 
They say when the barbarians sacked rome, there were local romans joining in on it. Because they no longer saw the world around them as something that represents them or something worth preserving.
What a fascinating phenomenon actually. So similar to how many in the western world see themselves these days. I just pray my country doesn't fall prey to it. On another note, I hope life gets better for you man.
 
Ah, alright. Well, let me frame it in this sense: let's imagine that they were all lying, the disciples, the apostles, every single person involved in composing and contributing to the Gospels and the New Testament. Spiritually, in knowing that they are lying about a guy being the Son of God, they'd therefore be at the understanding that they're going to hell for this, but that there, then, must be some reward on Earth worth making such a big lie over, since hell is eventual, but maybe they'll get some joy out of this heresy in the meantime, something worth deceiving the masses for. So, what reward do they get on Earth, then, that this heretical thought must be worth? Could it be abundant glory, riches, women, land, fame? Maybe if they deceive enough people, they could have palaces of concubines, or a vast empire, all to be ruled amongst themselves together! No. They get persecuted and driven out from town to town, locked up in deep dungeons, stoned to death, beheaded, flayed alive, burnt to death, crucified, clubbed to death, one had rope bound to his neck as a horse dragged him through streets of cobblestone, another burnt with hot plates and stabbed with spears, another hanged upon the branch of an olive tree, the list continues. Does this sound like the type of plan that people would be so willing to spend their lives for, without any resistance to the ruling authorities oppressing them, for these people truly believed that those who die for The Lord are blessed with eternal life, and that, even as they were so gruesomely killed, that they would inhabit a place alongside The Lord in the hereafter? My response, then, is: why would they, the early Christians, the original followers of Christ, lie and deceive to the point of the most unimaginable human pain when they could have, at any moment, packed up and given up on their lie? Why would they have written these historical accounts if they knew what would come to them? Why would they report and spread news of all of these miracles of Christ, following Him as He healed and blessed, when they knew it would have the authorities on their tail, desperate for a justification to slay them all? Clearly, then, at least in my eyes, it's very blatant that something divine is going on here, for something so peculiar to occur that so many would sacrifice their whole existence just to praise what must be a random, false prophet, right? Well, no, He wasn't any false prophet, He was the Son of God, as proven to me, and hopefully, eventually, with your own study, to you, through the documentations of His own miracles, through the hundreds of Messianic prophecies fulfilled by Him, and through the sheer determination and willpower His first followers showed to the world with their acts of courage and bravery in the face of the severest oppression one could encounter in their time.
Yeah, but what I'm saying is this. It is true that when the romans tortured the church fathers, they all swore jesus rose from the grave.

But how do we know that THIS account was true.

What motive would they have?

Could it be that they were simply atheists did only for political gain?
 
Yeah, but what I'm saying is this. It is true that when the romans tortured the church fathers, they all swore jesus rose from the grave.

But how do we know that THIS account was true.

What motive would they have?

Could it be that they were simply atheists did only for political gain?
Good questions, sorry I didn't respond earlier, as I had to go to bed. To start off, I'd have to also ponder what motive the church fathers could've had for proclaiming their beliefs besides having clear faith in what they believed, as they clearly didn't get anything out of it as they were being killed. I don't see what other reasoning one could have for doing such a thing, of propping up a lie even in their death, when no political gain or other such benefit would've ever been given to them in the midst of their torture or to the believers around them who persisted after they died. Take Justin Martyr, as one example; a Christian teacher, writer, and philosopher of amazing intellect who later migrated to Rome to continue his teachings, had angered the authorities after a Cynic philosopher named Crescens reported him to them, and who ended up, after refusing to make a sacrifice to the Hellenic gods, proclaiming (I'm not a Papist but that site I've linked is decent for reading some saintly works):
>That is our desire, to be tortured for Our Lord, Jesus Christ, and so to be saved, for that will give us salvation and firm confidence at the more terrible universal tribunal of Our Lord and Saviour.
Before being beheaded alongside several of his students, who also insisted upon the grace of The Lord. We must ask ourselves, then; "did these people, who, in Rome, would never have their ideas gain any great political power until centuries afterward, have their heads chopped off for the sake of their own personal, political gain?" I'm not sure how we could come to that conclusion. They were dying, they were at life's end, they couldn't hold a political office after that case, of course, and even after so many martyrdoms, Christians still continued to suffer persecution for a very long while afterward in the places of those martyrs' deaths, so it wasn't done as a sacrifice for any political gain for the believers as a whole, either.
 
Good questions, sorry I didn't respond earlier, as I had to go to bed. To start off, I'd have to also ponder what motive the church fathers could've had for proclaiming their beliefs besides having clear faith in what they believed, as they clearly didn't get anything out of it as they were being killed. I don't see what other reasoning one could have for doing such a thing, of propping up a lie even in their death, when no political gain or other such benefit would've ever been given to them in the midst of their torture or to the believers around them who persisted after they died. Take Justin Martyr, as one example; a Christian teacher, writer, and philosopher of amazing intellect who later migrated to Rome to continue his teachings, had angered the authorities after a Cynic philosopher named Crescens reported him to them, and who ended up, after refusing to make a sacrifice to the Hellenic gods, proclaiming (I'm not a Papist but that site I've linked is decent for reading some saintly works):
>That is our desire, to be tortured for Our Lord, Jesus Christ, and so to be saved, for that will give us salvation and firm confidence at the more terrible universal tribunal of Our Lord and Saviour.
Before being beheaded alongside several of his students, who also insisted upon the grace of The Lord. We must ask ourselves, then; "did these people, who, in Rome, would never have their ideas gain any great political power until centuries afterward, have their heads chopped off for the sake of their own personal, political gain?" I'm not sure how we could come to that conclusion. They were dying, they were at life's end, they couldn't hold a political office after that case, of course, and even after so many martyrdoms, Christians still continued to suffer persecution for a very long while afterward in the places of those martyrs' deaths, so it wasn't done as a sacrifice for any political gain for the believers as a whole, either.
Yes, but what I'm asking is that how do we know the accounts that say the church fathers didn't denounce christ and were executed are true and not fabrications added by later christian rulers.

Think about it, the Romans wouldn't have much of a reason to care about Jews or Christians so long as they could maintain their empire.
 
Yes, but what I'm asking is that how do we know the accounts that say the church fathers didn't denounce christ and were executed are true and not fabrications added by later christian rulers.

Think about it, the Romans wouldn't have much of a reason to care about Jews or Christians so long as they could maintain their empire.
I will start by saying that your doubts are certainly justified, as, for example, if a guy writes a book about how great his best friend is, it would only be natural to believe that this guy, being friends with that man, has a positive bias towards him. Similarly, how do we know that the Christians who documented those accounts of martyrdom weren't just making hagiographies of their dead brethren? Well, we know that some accounts were written by non-Christians, like Flavius Josephus, who reported on the death of James in his text The Antiquities of the Jews, but, in addition, we know that other early, significant martyrs who personally knew or greatly spread the word of Christ, like Peter or Paul, have had their deaths also recorded in extra-Biblical resources like the epistle of Clement, Ignatius' epistle to the Ephesians, or Tertullian's documentation in his text, Scorpiace. So, we know that the martyrs were described in such a way of martyrdom just years after their deaths, before Christians could have held power to change manuscripts away from such a description. However, I will also say that, at some point, one must simply make a decision to have trust in what historical documentation is present regarding where we may have doubts, which is where you and I differ, as I have trust in these manuscripts documenting the martyrs, a trust that stems from my own, personal faith and religion, while you do not share that faith with me from the position and will of yourself, and so, I really can't formulate much more than that; it eventually comes down to faith in Christ or no faith in Christ, and so I'd say that's where this conundrum would settle itself, since nothing more can be stated. Still, it's been very good talking to you, so I thank you for the discussion.
 
I will start by saying that your doubts are certainly justified, as, for example, if a guy writes a book about how great his best friend is, it would only be natural to believe that this guy, being friends with that man, has a positive bias towards him. Similarly, how do we know that the Christians who documented those accounts of martyrdom weren't just making hagiographies of their dead brethren? Well, we know that some accounts were written by non-Christians, like Flavius Josephus, who reported on the death of James in his text The Antiquities of the Jews, but, in addition, we know that other early, significant martyrs who personally knew or greatly spread the word of Christ, like Peter or Paul, have had their deaths also recorded in extra-Biblical resources like the epistle of Clement, Ignatius' epistle to the Ephesians, or Tertullian's documentation in his text, Scorpiace. So, we know that the martyrs were described in such a way of martyrdom just years after their deaths, before Christians could have held power to change manuscripts away from such a description. However, I will also say that, at some point, one must simply make a decision to have trust in what historical documentation is present regarding where we may have doubts, which is where you and I differ, as I have trust in these manuscripts documenting the martyrs, a trust that stems from my own, personal faith and religion, while you do not share that faith with me from the position and will of yourself, and so, I really can't formulate much more than that; it eventually comes down to faith in Christ or no faith in Christ, and so I'd say that's where this conundrum would settle itself, since nothing more can be stated. Still, it's been very good talking to you, so I thank you for the discussion.
Did figures like Flavius Josephus write about the resurrection of Christ? And if so, was it a first hand account.

The thing about any religion is that the founders would and outsiders would all have reason to lie.

BUT... the difference between christianity and Buddhism, for example is that primary buddhist sources admit that the miracles attributed to Buddha were didactic. They were told with the intention of teaching a lesson. But Christian sources insist christ's miracles were genuine.
So with Buddhist ones being didactic, why can't christian ones.

All this leads me to is a form of agnosticism towards Jesus's miracles.

THAT being said.


My real beef with Christianity is the same which Ibn Warraq, a former muslim and defender of the west had with Mahathma Gandhi. Which is that Gandhi's actions only worked because the british allowed it.

Likewise with Jesus, Zarathustra and Buddha, as well as many others like them. Their reformations only worked because they were under Roman, Persian and Hindu, and said rulers tolerated them. This applies to left wingers as well. If Karl Marx had been born in a jewish village in iraq, the local rabbi would've told him to shut the fuck up.

Jesus, Buddha and Zarathustra all had attempts made on their lives. Or faced opposition.

And remember, the jews won in the end. They managed to get the romans to crucify jesus.

If I was Jesus, Buddha or Zarathustra, I would've gotten my disciples to gymmax, and lead a rebellion agains the existing oligarchy. So basically Islam.

My beef with Islam, is that Arab culture is backwards and doesn't have the necessary building blocks to form a functioning society. Muhammad basically tried to reform the arabs and he was kicked out. This blackpilled him to the true nature of the world. He was no Buddha or Jesus or Zarathustra. He was an incel and unwanted child. So he raised and army. Islamic sources describe him as a depressed schizo. He probably knew what would happen. A depressed schizo is the only kind of prophets a sick world like that of the arabs would perform. While the world of the Iranic, Indic and Roman people created gentler and loving prophets/messiahs.
 
Did figures like Flavius Josephus write about the resurrection of Christ? And if so, was it a first hand account.

The thing about any religion is that the founders would and outsiders would all have reason to lie.

BUT... the difference between christianity and Buddhism, for example is that primary buddhist sources admit that the miracles attributed to Buddha were didactic. They were told with the intention of teaching a lesson. But Christian sources insist christ's miracles were genuine.
So with Buddhist ones being didactic, why can't christian ones.

All this leads me to is a form of agnosticism towards Jesus's miracles.

THAT being said.


My real beef with Christianity is the same which Ibn Warraq, a former muslim and defender of the west had with Mahathma Gandhi. Which is that Gandhi's actions only worked because the british allowed it.

Likewise with Jesus, Zarathustra and Buddha, as well as many others like them. Their reformations only worked because they were under Roman, Persian and Hindu, and said rulers tolerated them. This applies to left wingers as well. If Karl Marx had been born in a jewish village in iraq, the local rabbi would've told him to shut the fuck up.

Jesus, Buddha and Zarathustra all had attempts made on their lives. Or faced opposition.

And remember, the jews won in the end. They managed to get the romans to crucify jesus.

If I was Jesus, Buddha or Zarathustra, I would've gotten my disciples to gymmax, and lead a rebellion agains the existing oligarchy. So basically Islam.

My beef with Islam, is that Arab culture is backwards and doesn't have the necessary building blocks to form a functioning society. Muhammad basically tried to reform the arabs and he was kicked out. This blackpilled him to the true nature of the world. He was no Buddha or Jesus or Zarathustra. He was an incel and unwanted child. So he raised and army. Islamic sources describe him as a depressed schizo. He probably knew what would happen. A depressed schizo is the only kind of prophets a sick world like that of the arabs would perform. While the world of the Iranic, Indic and Roman people created gentler and loving prophets/messiahs.
Certainly some interesting thoughts. Well, to answer your question about Josephus, he actually did, writing of it in that same text I mentioned about a chapter before the mention of James' martyrdom. This wasn't a first-hand account, as Josephus didn't directly witness Christ's resurrection, but he did hear of it during his time in the Holy Land, and jotted it down among his histories. The excerpt of it (there have been scholarly squabbles over parts of what he wrote and their authenticity, like whether or not he did actually accept Jesus as the Christ and Messiah) I will post here:
>About this time there lived Jesus, a wise man, if indeed one ought to call him a man. For he was one who performed surprising deeds and was a teacher of such people as accept the truth gladly. He won over many Jews and many of the Greeks. He was the Christ. And when, upon the accusation of the principal men among us, Pilate had condemned him to a cross, those who had first come to love him did not cease. He appeared to them spending a third day restored to life, for the prophets of God had foretold these things and a thousand other marvels about him. And the tribe of the Christians, so called after him, has still to this day not disappeared.
 
Grim outlook.
I could say exactly the same about myself though.
Keep going until you either succeed or run out of options. I'm lucky my parents are more compassionate towards me than I believe I deserve.
 
Hinduism has some similar beliefs but obviously to get the ones in hinduism is much harder and requires several lifetimes of dedication. Suicide will surely hurt your chances of positive reincarnation
Not a hindu either.
Also, I'm an atheist where religion is concerned. Agnostic if you count cosmic arguements.

Either way, heaven was never on my side.
 
Certainly some interesting thoughts. Well, to answer your question about Josephus, he actually did, writing of it in that same text I mentioned about a chapter before the mention of James' martyrdom. This wasn't a first-hand account, as Josephus didn't directly witness Christ's resurrection, but he did hear of it during his time in the Holy Land, and jotted it down among his histories. The excerpt of it (there have been scholarly squabbles over parts of what he wrote and their authenticity, like whether or not he did actually accept Jesus as the Christ and Messiah) I will post here:
>About this time there lived Jesus, a wise man, if indeed one ought to call him a man. For he was one who performed surprising deeds and was a teacher of such people as accept the truth gladly. He won over many Jews and many of the Greeks. He was the Christ. And when, upon the accusation of the principal men among us, Pilate had condemned him to a cross, those who had first come to love him did not cease. He appeared to them spending a third day restored to life, for the prophets of God had foretold these things and a thousand other marvels about him. And the tribe of the Christians, so called after him, has still to this day not disappeared.
fascinating...

Still not the evidence I'm looking for.

Ofc even if I were to believe it, I can't really get behind christianity, because Christianity, despite being portrayed as violent religion, is actually quite docile and peaceful like Buddhism and Zoroastrianism.

I don't plan on being peaceful to my enemies. To forgive them is upto god, and to send them to god is upto me.
 
Take 5-6g of shrooms every other week for the next few months, retire your brain a bit, you’ll see life isn’t so bad once you stop giving a shit about everything normies tell you is important.
 


Curry foids like this used to be my bread and butter in keeping my hopes up. Whenever I saw a foid like this in my suggestions on my fb, I'd add them and I'd think it would be the start of my first real relationship, or that I would atleast get some form of female companionship. Half the time, foids like these were chadsexual femcels, dykes, or literal whores. Other times they already had boyfriends.

But what pulled me in back then was this aesthetic, this slim physique + no makeup + clear skin + anime merch

Now that I've almost achieved wizardhood, I see this for what this truly is. It's an act. A ruse. A fashion statement. Make up in its rawest form. This is just attention whoring.

She's wearing the most basic as anime shirt out there. Naruto. Fucking Naruto.


Naruto and One Piece SUCKS btw.

I see foids do this all the time. And every time, it's not out of love or appreciation for the media, the bitch has literally never seen a single episode and thinks the shirt looks cool. Or she's genuinely do it for clout. Because she knows she can get all the nerds to simp for her.

When I saw this pic, I almost added her. Then I let the blackpill kick in and guide me and I analyzed the photo and realized this was another fake low IQ bimbo.

If it was around 2009, these were the kinda foids who would've laughed at me for liking comic books and games, and in the off chance that they did like it, they would've been too ashamed and disgusted by me to be seen in public with me.

What once gave me hope that there was someone out there for me, now fills my heart with rage and anger and at how fake and evil foids, specially curry foids are.
 
This is something I have observed, having known many chads and observed their behaviour from afar, and from having known a few chads personally. Foids have told us that our personality is at fault and Chads miraculously have a great personality. But anyone who has known a chad irl, or has observed they way they are with foid you will realize that they act more like like femoids than like men.

Chads are extremely superficial, as are foids and ethnics, often extremely concerned with how people think about them, even about the most miniscule thing, even things as simple as comments on a fucking facebook post or youtube video.

I used to be part of a friend group of geeks and otakus in curryland, and one of them was a chad. I was new to the friend group and I was always treated as an outsider and was on thin ice with these guys. Meanwhile, this chad was an obnoxious douchebag who bragged about about having sex with his girlfriend, and then cheating on her. This incident happened when we were 16, and he had sex with her when she was 13. Everyone knew he was a douchebag, but they just tolerated him and invited him for gaming events and stuff, where he used aimbots JFL. There was one incident where there was a guy in the group who I will call 4 eyes. 4 eyes was a pretty boy with glasses, albeit short. He got a really hot girlfriend. And Chad basically got the foid to send him nudes. I don't think even 4 eyes got nudes. And chad spread the nudes to everyone to prove that he had gotten it. I was left out of the whole thing, because I was considered an outsider, but I did my own investigation and got chad to spill everything that happened. Basically pretended to be his friend. After that, everyone cut off chad from the group, unfriended and blocked him. But they all "forgave" him after a while. And even 4 eyes added him back on fb. 4 eyes played the guitar back then and there was a video of him playing some song with a white guy, expat living in curryland, and one of the guys just left a spam comment in the curry language, calling her a whore and he's fucking her. And chad just messaged him, asking him to remove it. JFL. Anyway, eventually, I was excommunicated from this group for far less, for basically being a schizo.

And this other chad I met at the gym, he basically tried to groom me into becoming a chad and gave up. There was a time in my life when right wingers would try to groom me. He had this sob story about being fat as a kid, and how he started gymmaxxing and so on. Again, simmiar story, foid tier behaviour with hyper fixation of things like pictures posted on instagram stories and so on. This guy eventually unfollowed me out of the blue. Eventually I had an episode and asked him why and he didn't give me an answer and was all "yeah, that's on me, but we're still gym buddies". He stopped coming to that gym about a year ago. And I had put my neck out for this guy, one time he had made a tik tok which the local feminists didn't like, and I was one of the only people speaking for him, and another time, he had done a photoshoot(this guy was a model) with an obese feminist influence who was known for molesting chads and getting away with it because her parents were rich and high status. Eventually more and more stories came out about this guy about him basically faking interests in causes he knows nothing about for clout.

In my own origin story, the chad involved displayed the same traits, hyper fixation on material things, brands, instagram likes.etc. Almost to the point of faggotry. But actual faggots aren't like that. Maybe these are just curry things tbh.
 
Brootal story.

How does that even work? Was he trying to inject you with steroids? Jfl
Basically trying to introduce me to people as his "project" so to speak.

He was among the first people I told the black pill stuff to when I was first getting into it. And he introduced me to his girlfriend as "DCC used go post on Incel forums, then he got his life together, and started...."

apparently he has done this to several people, both men and women.

he tried to get me to attend an event where they basically take loser and try to teach them social skills. I imagine it's like that PUA shit Rehab Room plays in his videos.
 
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DCC's Journal
September 25th, 2024

Went for hair treatment again. Saw foid in dress. Pretty. Realized brain recognised femoid facial beauty, overrode, replaced with anger at realization that foids such as those would never give me the time of day.
Hair treatment was exhausting. Watched youtube video about lost media called 'Escaepe: Triassic Hall' by 'unfiction video'. Five year old smartphone died just after video ended.
Charged the phone in car. Saw another femoid in knee length dress, skinny, waifu material, realized I had seen dozens of these "waifu material" on leaked porn videos since the age of 12.
Rage...
Rage...
Rage...
Thought of the sex that I've been denied.
Thought of the sex and hymens carelessly offered to men who deserve it far less...
More Rage...
Came home...
Too exhausted to work out.
Studied japanese.
Going to work on coding project before going to sleep.

I hate being a shitskin.
 
DCC's Journal
September 25th, 2024

Went for hair treatment again. Saw foid in dress. Pretty. Realized brain recognised femoid facial beauty, overrode, replaced with anger at realization that foids such as those would never give me the time of day.
Hair treatment was exhausting. Watched youtube video about lost media called 'Escaepe: Triassic Hall' by 'unfiction video'. Five year old smartphone died just after video ended.
Charged the phone in car. Saw another femoid in knee length dress, skinny, waifu material, realized I had seen dozens of these "waifu material" on leaked porn videos since the age of 12.
Rage...
Rage...
Rage...
Thought of the sex that I've been denied.
Thought of the sex and hymens carelessly offered to men who deserve it far less...
More Rage...
Came home...
Too exhausted to work out.
Studied japanese.
Going to work on coding project before going to sleep.

I hate being a shitskin.
put all your writings in a book called "a saar's last redeem" and then go ER against foids
 
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