Just to preface, I don't want to make this thread about Christianity. I want to know what made you begin your spiritual journey, regardless of religion.
If someone asked me: Why am I a Christian? I'd say many reasons. But there's one that pivoted my worldview after years of looking into everything else. I realized only one thing ever matched what I actually saw in the world: that humans are the only beings who know they’re alive and know they’ll die. No other animal wrestles with morality. They don’t build cathedrals or write symphonies. They don’t weep over injustice or ask what happens after death. And that consciousness, that unbearable awareness of good, evil, beauty, and decay is something breathed into us.
When I was younger, I used to think consciousness was just a side effect of a big enough brain. Then I watched people destroy themselves with full awareness, lying to themselves while knowing it’s a lie. Only creatures made in the image of God could twist themselves that way. If you’re honest with yourself, you know it too. You feel that weight when you look at a sunset or bury a friend. Christianity says you’re broken, but you were made for something higher.