I used to be in great shape, going to the gym every day, slowly overcoming ADHD and my terrible social anxiety and depression from years of trauma at school.
Then the receding hairline hit (I'm only 22) and my hairs going like crazy. I'm only 5'7 as well.
I've completely given up. I lost 15kg going from 65kg -> 50kg, back to being bone thin, eating nothing, atrophying muscles. I got fired from my last two jobs.
I can't live knowing that even if I worked extremely hard to overcome my depression, get a great job, get into great shape, become healthy happy and funny, I'll still be a balding 5'7 manlet, worthless to women.
I go on IG every day and just scroll endlessly through reels of women denigrating my uncontrollable genetics and I end with my heart pounding, head aching, blinding rage. I don't know what I did to be born this way, is it karmic justice for a past life where I abused women?
Sometimes I just laugh at what a genuinely pathetic situation I am in. Like Jesus fucking Christ. What a joke of a life man.
I will end up commiting suicide one day. I don't know what else to say.
I hope everyone who reads this from other subreddits has a good chuckle at the incel, I know I've given up trying to defend myself.