DirtyCurryCell
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No, I'm not going to convert.
Specially because I'm defined by the fact that I cannot be a christian.
There's also the fact that 99.99% of churches are corrupt. They've either bent over backwards to the woke mob. Or they're child molesters. Often both.
Neither am I going to do some new age BS.
But I did the math.
I will rope soon. And while I don't think the arguments for god made by believers hold any weight, that isn't accounting for cosmic arguements.
I come from a religion that takes karma very seriously. They think whatever good or bad you put into this world will come back to you, one way or another. For the longest time, I've dismissed these as ramblings of malnourished Indian ascetics hallucinating in the forests. Infact, I still do.
But there is some thing Nietzsche said which has better recontextualized things for me. It is that live your life as if you would have to live your whole life again and again, forever.
And that makes sense to me. If nothing else, that makes sense.
I'm someone who has a strong sense of right and wrong, and this led to me being a liberal in my youth. I used to stand up for women and minorities. But women and minorities can stand up for themselves.
I've chosen Christianity in particular, because I've found that not only do my secular values have roots in christianity. But those who leave their religion of birth and become christians, often lead the most fulfilling lives. They always seem the most happiest, compared to Muslims, Hindus or Buddhists. Infact, converts to Islam are just low IQ blacks who convert "because sneako converted", or angsty edge lords who want to own it to the establishment in some way (despite islam being one of the most protect things on the planet), while converts to hinduism are traumatized women and new age hippies, and converts to buddhism are larpers, nihlists and pseudo-intellectuals.
It is a shame that I cannot believe in God the same way humble christians do. But one thing I do know is that I'm tired of being angry, horny and traumatized. I just want to be happy. And taking Nietzche's advice to heart, I'm going to live the rest of my life, as if God were real. Even though I'm agnostic about it at the end of the day and advocate for state atheism.
To me, this doesn't mean going to church or converting. But I ask myself, will the strong devout christians who built this world, like Thomas Aquinas, given what I know of them, approve of my actions. Honestly, the worst of my cardinal sins is that I'm a porn addict. And that's something I'm going to reduce from now on. I'm gonna delete everything. It will take a while. I've started being kinder to my parents because I know I won't get to be with them for long.
My life feels so unfair, and I used to think I would rebel against God, if he existed. But I now realize that he would be God, and there would be nothing I could do.
Maybe I simply wasn't strong enough, and deserve to burn in hell fire for all eternity. Life is shit. I don't get why the after life would be any different.
Specially because I'm defined by the fact that I cannot be a christian.
There's also the fact that 99.99% of churches are corrupt. They've either bent over backwards to the woke mob. Or they're child molesters. Often both.
Neither am I going to do some new age BS.
But I did the math.
I will rope soon. And while I don't think the arguments for god made by believers hold any weight, that isn't accounting for cosmic arguements.
I come from a religion that takes karma very seriously. They think whatever good or bad you put into this world will come back to you, one way or another. For the longest time, I've dismissed these as ramblings of malnourished Indian ascetics hallucinating in the forests. Infact, I still do.
But there is some thing Nietzsche said which has better recontextualized things for me. It is that live your life as if you would have to live your whole life again and again, forever.
And that makes sense to me. If nothing else, that makes sense.
I'm someone who has a strong sense of right and wrong, and this led to me being a liberal in my youth. I used to stand up for women and minorities. But women and minorities can stand up for themselves.
I've chosen Christianity in particular, because I've found that not only do my secular values have roots in christianity. But those who leave their religion of birth and become christians, often lead the most fulfilling lives. They always seem the most happiest, compared to Muslims, Hindus or Buddhists. Infact, converts to Islam are just low IQ blacks who convert "because sneako converted", or angsty edge lords who want to own it to the establishment in some way (despite islam being one of the most protect things on the planet), while converts to hinduism are traumatized women and new age hippies, and converts to buddhism are larpers, nihlists and pseudo-intellectuals.
It is a shame that I cannot believe in God the same way humble christians do. But one thing I do know is that I'm tired of being angry, horny and traumatized. I just want to be happy. And taking Nietzche's advice to heart, I'm going to live the rest of my life, as if God were real. Even though I'm agnostic about it at the end of the day and advocate for state atheism.
To me, this doesn't mean going to church or converting. But I ask myself, will the strong devout christians who built this world, like Thomas Aquinas, given what I know of them, approve of my actions. Honestly, the worst of my cardinal sins is that I'm a porn addict. And that's something I'm going to reduce from now on. I'm gonna delete everything. It will take a while. I've started being kinder to my parents because I know I won't get to be with them for long.
My life feels so unfair, and I used to think I would rebel against God, if he existed. But I now realize that he would be God, and there would be nothing I could do.
Maybe I simply wasn't strong enough, and deserve to burn in hell fire for all eternity. Life is shit. I don't get why the after life would be any different.