Serious I feel completely detached from people around me.

[TheCrazyInsanity]

Is it just me, but I feel like I am geniuently detached from people, even family. It is a hard feeling to describe, but I feel like people that are my friends or family do not really care or know me. To friends, I am just what I portray and not a full person with some depth to it. There is no real interest to check in on me and really see how I am doing, it's something I do but seemingly nobody else. They may see what I am superficially, but they never think or try to really understand me or, if in need, help me. They are just kinda there and that's about it. I do not feel understood nor anyone wants to understand me, which in turn makes me isolated. The default response to this for me is to just sit quietly and not try to get out of my way to participate in different occasions, because then I feel I serve no purpose there. This has been a constant in my life since I was in highschool. It just makes me feel very alone, pretty much 90% of the time.
While I believe this may have to do something with how our society is these days and how social media damaged our ability to form friendship or relationships. I think I just have tons of undiagnosed trauma that nobody knows of because I am not communicative about it, I just rather escape social situations and do nothing about it, since I have work to do. Also, since people around me think I am just dealing with it fine, or as I said, they don't know about it, they just don't notice it. Which I see as a better way about dealing with, cause otherwise I would be an obnoxious faggot.
Has anyone been there? Or is it just me?

 

[notallvampires]

I hug someone I'm supposed to hug and tell them "I love you" but I don't really feel anything. This doesn't really bother me, it is habitual. I think I do want them to be happy, but I don't really think about it much. I often fantasize for much I want to own a woman thoughevermylest, make her blush and giggle with flirting. I used to fantasize about having friends. I think I have been like this for a long time. I am nearly a standard deviation above average in narcissism, psychopathy and machiavellianism. Do not take any online personality tests without using tor.

There is always going to be a part of your inner life that is only meant for you and is only your business. Imagine all the geniuses born in backwater small towns or equivalent throughout history. The mundane life-for-life is the substrate from which great life-for-more-than-life emerges. The normie organism maintains this structure while unable of comprehending its yield. You are part of their level in as much as you need survival. That is their level, if you are blessed with a spark of genius or a some extra sigma of IQ they might not comprehend it. Yet, their love of you in a way that relates to survival and reproduction bears some natural relation to your ambitions. The eternal base serves the perennial refined even if it rarely knows its shape well.

I can't tell how much of this is contemporary influence of tech because I never knew anything else. There was supposedly an earlier transition of similar nature when air conditioning was invented because people used to go outside on the porch in the shade. I guess pedophiles becoming a thing must have cut down on letting kids roam the neighborhood at some point.

If the "oh man, I have to get out of here, I need to do things, I have work" is an instinct you developed as a sort of moral-flavored burden I would suggest resisting it a bit, even if you have work that you need to do right now. People don't deal well with discontinuous life changes like "someday my real life will start" or "wow, I just won the lottery" or "oh boy, i sure hope I don't kill myself once I finally retire and realize I have no life of my own". You have to start living the life you want to live today and adapt to it before you reach milestones.

Good on you for not traumafagging. It is unclear to me when people mean trauma like "I literally go back to that place and circumstance in a vivid unwanted daydream or nighmare" or if they just mean cringing at past mistakes/circumstances or if they mean the sort of unconscious reactions to things that you need to lucidly recognize and rectify.

 

[GermanicAurelian]

I hug someone I'm supposed to hug and tell them "I love you" but I don't really feel anything. This doesn't really bother me, it is habitual. I think I do want them to be happy, but I don't really think about it much. I often fantasize for much I want to own a woman thoughevermylest, make her blush and giggle with flirting. I used to fantasize about having friends. I think I have been like this for a long time. I am nearly a standard deviation above average in narcissism, psychopathy and machiavellianism. Do not take any online personality tests without using tor.

There is always going to be a part of your inner life that is only meant for you and is only your business. Imagine all the geniuses born in backwater small towns or equivalent throughout history. The mundane life-for-life is the substrate from which great life-for-more-than-life emerges. The normie organism maintains this structure while unable of comprehending its yield. You are part of their level in as much as you need survival. That is their level, if you are blessed with a spark of genius or a some extra sigma of IQ they might not comprehend it. Yet, their love of you in a way that relates to survival and reproduction bears some natural relation to your ambitions. The eternal base serves the perennial refined even if it rarely knows its shape well.

I can't tell how much of this is contemporary influence of tech because I never knew anything else. There was supposedly an earlier transition of similar nature when air conditioning was invented because people used to go outside on the porch in the shade. I guess pedophiles becoming a thing must have cut down on letting kids roam the neighborhood at some point.

If the "oh man, I have to get out of here, I need to do things, I have work" is an instinct you developed as a sort of moral-flavored burden I would suggest resisting it a bit, even if you have work that you need to do right now. People don't deal well with discontinuous life changes like "someday my real life will start" or "wow, I just won the lottery" or "oh boy, i sure hope I don't kill myself once I finally retire and realize I have no life of my own". You have to start living the life you want to live today and adapt to it before you reach milestones.

Good on you for not traumafagging. It is unclear to me when people mean trauma like "I literally go back to that place and circumstance in a vivid unwanted daydream or nighmare" or if they just mean cringing at past mistakes/circumstances or if they mean the sort of unconscious reactions to things that you need to lucidly recognize and rectify.

i agree with what he said

 

[Weebhunter3000]

I think most people don't really want to have deeper relationships beyond the surface level. I mean most people, including family members, hate having to listen to others problems and worries. That's why when your asked how your week was, it's almost a default response to say "it was good," and leave it at that. If you're not pretending to be happy then no one wants to be around you.